My Heart's Inferno

Hey Guys and Girls of Poned and Co.!

I'm just sitting here, waiting for the clock to strike 6:00, for the MARVELOUS time I'm going to have at my Homecoming dance. *Sigh* The clock's sticking, but it feels like it's going nowhere. Why doesn't this stupid clock hurry up?! Haha, sorry for that.. I'm just a little anxious to see this guy I've been crushing on for about four years... He used to be my best friend in middle school, but the sad thing is, he doesn't even know how I feel about him. But you know what, girls? I think that tonight's the night. No, not like that you silly girls... xP No, tonight's the night I'm going to tell him that I've been seriously in "major-like" with him since seventh grade!

Now, I can't call it "love" because, unfortunately, I've never been "in-love." I can't call my O.J.D love, it's more a passion, but don't get me wrong, I'd love to marry those boys, haha. This might get a little corny, seeing as how I'm the "QUEEN OF CORNINESS," but yanno, I've had this little note of my secret crush he wrote to me in class in seventh grade.. and you wanna know what it said? He wrote to me, "So, do you want to go out with me?" You should have heard my heart in complete excitement, but then... I somehow messed it up. I ended up writing back to him, "I'll think about it." THAT WAS MY MISTAKE. The poor guy ended up regretting every conversation we've ever had, and he's gone away from my side as besties... and now, it's four years later, and I've had to gander at his sweet face from across the schoolyard, and secretly behind the reflective shine of my glasses in the sun. It's such a sad and pathetic thing, seeing as how I have such a "tough-girl" rep.... My feelings and emotions totally contradict my label as being a hardcore-chick. Haha, and yes, as I said before, I'm the queen of cornies, so there we go.

Anyways, I'm not sure how to bring up this "revealing of my heart to this guy." Oh, snap... I have one other thing to admit: I'm terrifed of rejection. I lack the self-confidence, and that right there, my friends, is going to be the pitfall of my failures. So, to completely just pour out my feelings, is a MAJOR accomplishment. Haha, I can almost see you guys, laughing at the computer screen of my insecure follies... prolly because you're either the direct, straight-forward type of people that just say what they wanna say! Oooh, how envious I am of you.. *chuckles*

Oh, woe is me, it's only 4:51, and I'm still stuck in the same position of my thoughts. How can I just say what I want to say without looking and feeling like a COMPLETE moron? Well girls, I can tell you this... Spanish 3 Honors is never going to be the same again after this weekend. *sigh* Oh, 4:53, it's driving me crazy. Wish me luck girlies, (and guys, if you're awesome and totally not ashamed of being a JB fan, haha. :D ) and I'll blog more about it afterwards as soon as possible. ;)

-With Peace, Love and Jonas ;)
~~~Dannie~~~